My Random Thoughts

I didn’t watch the bachelor. after last week, i was over it.  I have a headache, I can’t sleep even though i want to and i’m too hot.   WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ok, i’m going to try bed again.

Ok – maybe going to a winter picture is a little drastic, since it’s not even November yet. It’s a rainy gray Saturday. I may as well take advantage of the little free time I manage to steal.

yeah, so you know what, this is just boring already. 10 minutes into the show and i’m done. I think I’d rather sleep tonight, which is exactly what i’m going to do.

Looks like i’m done with this train wreck

While technically, we have weather every day, nothing changes in South Florida except for the occasional hurricane. Blessedly, we have had a quiet season so far (six weeks left). The weather is always sunny, hot and humid. Even when it’s chilly here, it’s hot! and humid.  I’m looking forward to the humidity breaking in maybe another month. That is the reason people come down here.

But I miss weather. I miss the seasons, I miss the uncertainty of being able to do something because of the weather. I like having to snuggle in the house on a rainy or snowy day.  When I get my house with a fireplace it will be perfect, well until i get tired of the fire, but until then.

Maybe its my short attention span, or my need for variety, but this weather is getting boring! But not boring enough for a hurricane, though I would take a rain storm right now.

And that mean The Bachelor. OH MY – they start moving fast these days. And people wonder what is wrong with this world – well, goodness, this would be a good start. And yet, I can’t stop watching.

So much alcohol – they showed a scene with the bar with the group date – I think there were 6 girls with him. Easily 6 bottles of champagne, a number of bottles of wine and assorted other booze. I hope they were sharing with the crew and didn’t expect them to drink it all. How much do they want those girls to drink?

The best part is yet to come – Erica has her meltdown. I can’t wait to see that. She needs to do something with that hair, it is so bad.

I’m trying to work, but I can’t seem to get into the groove of what I’m trying to accomplish.  So, here i sit and stare at my project plan, hoping inspiration will hit me. I could read more documents or emails, but i’m not sure how much I’d retain. Tonight is the night i need a system changeover. Goodness knows I’m awake for it right now.

I could update my list of things to do, there are so many things I could be doing right now, but in reality, I just don’t feel like doing any of them. SIGH

I took the day off today and actually didn’t work (now that should be headline news!). After making breakfast, I turn to my computer to see that I have an IM from someone I haven’t even though about in easily 6 years. I didn’t recognize his screen name, but as soon as he ’said’ his name, I knew exactly who it was. His message started with ‘you probably don’t remember me….’ I did.  We caught up, at a high level not much has changed. Jobs change, families get bigger, people move, hmmm, maybe things do change.  We both seem to have lost touch with many of the people we both used to work with, although with the wonder that is called the Internet, I’m sure we could find them again.

Later in the day, I did look up someone who used to live  across the alley. I found him, I found his email. He now has a message waiting for him. I hope he writes back, Jeff and I were good friends with him once. I miss him.

And then there are people I still can’t find. It is easier to find men – generally their last names don’t change. Finding women – now THAT is a challenge. Hmmm, this makes me sound like a stalker. Seriously, I’m not, I just like to find people I used to know.

So yeah, the internet – it’s a wonderful thing.

WHY WHY WHY do I make myself crazy with this?

So Erica – the socialite – I certainly hope that was an act because if it wasn’t an act, wow, I pity the man that ends up with her. What a spoiled brat. She’s 23, she has time to mature, and I hope she certainly does. It’s certainly good for the entertainment value. whine whine whine.

I haven’t seen enough of the other girls to really have an opinion. I’m loving reading the message boards. This almost makes Monday worth it!

Oh what a decade. With the availabilty of satellite radio, VH-1’s I Love the (insert your favorite decade) it’s easy to get stuck in a time warp and I have gotten stuck in the 80’s, filled with big hair, bubble gum pop and the angst of youth. I think back to the drama that filled my life and the lives of my friends. Things seem SOOOO boring today, all I do is go to work (and I don’t usually even GO anyplace). Is it the maturity and experience of life that causes things to not be so emotionally wrenching? Is it that we’ve just become numb and desensitized to the input? Or is it just me?

I’ve been thinking about that lately. Maybe I don’t have enough to do, or my brain is just on overload and I have to think about something else. I have emotion in my life, I have stress at work (sometimes more than I think I can handle), I have excitement, happiness, sadness, but there isn’t that just gut wrenching angst that I remember from my youth. I don’t think I miss it, but the music of the decade does bring back those memories.

I do remember people telling me that in the whole scheme of things this (whatever ‘this’ was) won’t matter. It was true. No one cares what my GPA was in high school. No one cares (except Andersen Consulting) what my GPA was in college. No one even remember who won the homecoming game, although somewhere I’m sure that information is recorded. Its funny how important things can seem at the time. In the end, none of it matters. Even what is going on today doesn’t really matter, although whatever music is playing will trigger those memories in another decade.

Back to the 80’s – in hindsight – how could we have thought those styles were at all stylish? Legwarmers? What were we thinking, they should have never left the dance studios.

Yes, this time i really do think I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I finally decided I’d had enough, I left my office at 5:30, turned off the computer and walked out the door. Considering I work at home, that isn’t a dramatic exit, but it was enough for me.  I finished making dinner (I’m becoming a big fan of the crock pot), picked up the house a little bit and took a walk.

Soon I’m going to have a glass of wine and settle in with a few magazine (what a concept – reading!). With the way I’m yawning, I may not even make it to the glass of wine.

I was tickled to take a walk tonight – just getting out and getting some fresh air was a treat. Sad, but true. The moon was creepy. I should have taken some pictures.  Something ran across our path; I dont know what it was, but it had orange eyes. Feels like October, the spooks are out!